I KNOOOOOW. it's been so long since I put anything of my own up. To be honest, I just never felt like writing anything :s And every time I try to force something, it comes out horrible. This here is pretty alright. I was feeling it at the moment, hopefully I'll like it tomorrow. :p But good or bad, I will always share my stuff ! <3
My mind has proven to be a very misleading place
It keeps fucking with my reality
I mean, have you ever had a dream so sweet
That you wake up unpleased to see
That it ain't real?
They say a dream is a wish your heart makes
So I stood up straight, eyes wide open trying to stay awake
And not fall into the fate of that dream world.
Cause to be honest my subconscious has been fucking with me.
Taking me to places in my mind I don't really want to be
Cause life and reality has taught me that the things I thought were manageable
Are no longer tangible
And I refuse to harbor false hopes in my heart
And get disappointed again.
Yes.
Again.
It's funny how life shits on you so often
Happy memories fade away but the bad ones are never forgotten
I never knew that 'happily ever after'
Was a screen play written strictly for actors
And I never got a hand of that script
So every day Hollywood tries to mimic my life
But they never quite get the gist.
So I could never quite relate to the stories flashing in my face
Between the 40 inches of my flat screen
Cause they conveyed the dreams I was afraid of.
See, romantic comedies never sat too fond with me
Cause if my life was a movie,
All you'd see is players and broke niggas trying to holler at me
So you see why I refuse to dream?
If it's not one thing, then it's always the other
Either we ain't on the same page or I'm just another
And even on my worst days I am not about that life.
See reality has taught me that it is full of men
Who won't talk to me in public, but are pushing for private conversations
Thoughts only leaving me debating on
"How exactly am I going to kill him"
Should I draw my blade or play it safe and walk away?
But today, I didn't hesitate with that I had to say.
So the sharpest blade I had flung out
With it, scrapping the roof of my mouth
As that two headed axe I call my voice started to speak
"Men like you disgust me. Literally making me sick.
At what point did you take a complete 180 from your mother's teachings
and become the ultimate prick?
Thinking that you can holler at any chick
Just to get a quick fix? well fix this.
Your most unattractive attribute is your lack of seriousness.
Men like you ask me why I don't fucks with them
Why I find it so difficult to put trust them
So I ask them why they findit so difficult to keep a damn promise.
Correct me if I'm wrong, or you can bow down to my honest, and truthful opinion.
Yeah, I aint feeling em
See, I don't believe a word from motherfuckers like you.
Phoney brothers like you,
Not worth my time, yet keep my self esteem constantly under review
There is absolutely nothing to discuss, cause we don't even relate.
This is exactly why I am up so late, constantly fighting to stay awake.
Cause reality taught me that the majority of men- though it seems
All have schemes.
See it's niggas like you,
That make it impossible for girls like me
To even try and dream"
