This legit too me so long to write because one day I'd write a verse and leave it. next day write a verse. hate the previous one, delete it, etc.
Well now it is finally done. Its not my favourite work but that is were YOU come in :) how the hell can i fix this? :) And what are your initial thoughts? let me know what you all think.
I'm open to criticism but closed to hating :P
It Works For Me
As a woman all the times i've used and been used
Torn and confused, my heart has been bruised
My man didn't love me enough
So he left saying its cause he loved me too much
I guess he was too scared of love
I can't say that we were never meant to be
Or that he wasn't meant for me
It's just somewhere down the road, he messed up our destiny.
So i stopped believing.
Gave my love but i wasn't receiving
Guess sometimes looks are deceiving
Cause he done looked like the man of my dreams,
The love of my life.
I guess I should've put my glasses on right...
Having crushes on boys I could never have
Only to end up with boys that I should never have
I never felt like I was better than
Cause if the first man didn't want me
The rest must follow the pattern then
Telling God the Father that he should have tried harder
To send someone better my way
Tomorrow ain't promised so I only got today
And i swear I would call all these boys mistakes
Cause if time could rewind, back is all the shit I'd take.
I ain't got that time to waste.
So i say, fuck it.
I tired to write something deep
To be completely honest
My thoughts are as stable as a broken armrest.
Unreliable. I shouldn't trust my mind
Cause if I dwell on my emotions, I'm bound to fall behind.
So with this notion of honesty
Truth is my mind is running relentlessly
Cause how can one even begin to vocalize
How it feels when your heart begins to die?
So i pretend as if I'm fine
Make y'all laugh just to see a smile
Even if is isn't mine.
Cause what's the use of crying?
It's like
Words can't express and when they try, tears do the speaking
And when they do my eyes stop seeing
Blind.
Heart turns to stone so my heart stops feeling
All the things that pushed me to love now finds no reason.
Developing that "fuck you mentality"
So far from reality
So far gone
But fuck it, it works for me.
I keep telling myself.
Ali, it works for me.
